UGGGGGGGHHHHHH

I thought that my life was moving along rather harmoniously. I have been drama-free and loving it. That is until last night.....my roommate and I are in the worst possible fight EVER. I am really probably going to loose it within the next three months that we have to live together. She is a traitorous B. She has just recently been separated from her husband (I say recently, since May when she moved in with me.) Trying to be a good friend and a good roommate, I have introduced her to all of my friends and helped her build connections with them. I found out last night that she has been making plans with them and telling them that I am too busy to hang out. Then she comes home and gushes about how much fun she has been having. How scandalous. How dare you try to exclude me from my own friends, which clearly you would not have if it wasn't for me. I have tried to be a true friend to you...but no more. Has anyone dealt with a similar situation? I am dumbfounded someone could be so cruel at 30. GROW THE F UP.

I haven't written in a few days because I am in a bad mindset financially. I have been contemplating buying a house, but determined that my student loans are so outrageous that it scares me to take out any more money. I currently have just over $105,000 in student loans and have 23 more years of payments. No bank or company will consolidate my private student loans which are at a variable interest rate. While the market is down, so is the interest rate, but as soon as the ecomony is booming again my rates will skyrocket. I know there is tons of advice out there stating that you should not repay your student loans faster than necessary,but I cannot stand it. At this rate, I will be over 50 before they are paid off and that is unacceptable to me. Thus, I believe that I am going to take next year and aggressively pay back my student loans. I understand that it is still going to take several years of aggressive payments before it is paid off, but I cannot stand it hanging over my head. At least with a house, you have something to show for it.

Made it Through Another Weekend

I made it through another weekend, but I can officially say that I am broke. Going out all the time is very hard on my pocket book. I have not been doing well on making the rational, pinch the pennies, decisions. I am afraid to even type the amount of money that I spent this past weekend. Here is goes:

Friday:
Gas before the hurricane: $40.00
Wine for dinner: $14.50
Dinner: $63.00 (One of the best 5 course meals that I have ever had and completely worth it).
Drinks after dinner: $17.00

Saturday:
Lunch: $12.00

Sunday:
Donation: $3.00
Brunch: $20.00
Grocery run: $45.23

Total weekend spending: $214.73. Ouch.....Not to mention there are two more weekends left in September. I have got to get myself in control. This week I am going to try and do dinner and lunch at home until Friday and then me and three girl friends are heading to the Coast to the casino. I doubt that we do a lot of gambling. Just plan on laying out by the pool and checking out the bars at night. I am really looking forward to a weekend away. I am thinking that this next weekend will have to come out of the travel fund. That's why I say for travel, right? What did everyone else do that was fun for the weekend?

Living Arrangements Part 2

I heard back from the realtor and they will let me sign a seven month lease. That works out great for me. I have plenty of time to find the "perfect" place and I will not be stuck by the "ex" for too much longer. The roommate is willing to relocate. She has no personal preference on where we live, but wants to live together. That is good news for me. Everything is working out fine. I tend to worry for nothing. Thanks again for all your comments. They really help me rationalize things.

Living Arrangements

Yesterday after work, my roommate and I meet with the new real estate agency that has taken over managing our duplex. The new agency wants us to sign a 12 month lease, but I am not sure that I want to sign more than six months. My concerns are linked to the "ex." Conveniently or inconveniently now, the "ex" lives approximately five houses down from me on the same road. Therefore, we are both forced to drive by the other's house everyday. While this is not a problem so much right now, once either one of us starts dating again, I think it will become a big problem (at least for me). I am sure that he will start dating again before I do because I am not emotionally ready right now.

Anyways, I am now stuck with the decision on whether I want to move out now or sign a new 12 month lease. While me moving makes the most sense - the "ex" owns his house, he actually bought his house first, and I took a job that now requires me to commute 20 mins each way - the rent is very reasonable, it is not an apartment, a can have my dog, and it really helps to have a roommate to split all the bills with me. I LOVE the place that I am living in at this point in my life. I just hate the fact that I cannot get over the "ex" because he is right there. I am terrified of the day that I notice a girl at his house.

I am just really not in the mood to make life altering decisions right now. I need time to process all the things that are happening in my life and make a sound decision on what I WANT. That is way I would prefer to sign a six month lease. I have tried negotiating with the real estate agency. They are supposed to cal me back to let me know if they agree with my terms. I refused to sign the new 12 month lease yesterday while I was at the office because I am not sure that is the best decision for me.

Hard Night

Last night was a very hard night for me. I had a very productive day at work and wanted nothing more than to go home, work out, eat dinner and relax. Well, things did go as planned, but were made worse by the "ex." I got home to discover that the "ex" had delivered all of my belongings from his house to my room apparently while I was at work. This was made worse by him not even leaving a note. I have not heard ONE word from him since he called it quits. If it hadn't sunk in that we were no longer a couple, it is bright and clear now. M.E.N.

Weekend #2

This past weekend was weekend #2 being single. The weekend started off great. I got home from work, ate dinner, and got ready for a big night out. I meet up with a few friends and we headed out to the bar where I successfully only spent $10.00. Then it was time for bar #2. This bar wasn't as great as I thought that it would be although I had a good time. It just wasn't my scene anymore (would have loved it at 21). Ended up having a guy buy my drinks and therefore didn't spend a dime. Headed home and went to bed.

Saturday was pretty busy. I slept until almost eleven, which is unheard of for me. I then headed to meet three girlfriends for a day out. We went shopping and all ended up buying nothing. Afterwards we went for snow cones. Fun times. When I got home, I wasn't really in the mood for going out. Therefore, the roommate and I decided to go rent movies. If you haven't seen Charlie Bartlett, it is a must. The funniest movie I have seen in awhile.

On Sunday, I went to church, had lunch with the roommate, played tennis, and then watch another movie - all before 5:00. Afterwards, I was bored silly. I am not used to having free time and it is really hard on me. I don't like being idle because my brain works overtime and I need to stay busy. This was by far the hardest day for me since the "ex" and I broke up.

All in all, it was a relaxing weekend. Although, I cannot believe that I am going to say this - I was actually looking forward to coming back to work on Monday. This weekend I am going to try and stay extra busy.